Who am I?

Someone asked me this question expecting more than just a simple one ended sentence to sum up the details about me. Thinking about it, I've never just sat down and thought about it either. I know on a deeper subconscious the things that make me who I am but what are you, truly?

Think about it.



I could go into the obvious things. My name is Brooke and I'm female. I have long, brownish hair and tend to be quite tall for a girl. But the thing is, I don't see any of my physical features or objects I interact with to be who I am. Bodies are simply things our souls live in because it's our soul that is the entity of your being. So, explain my soul? I am merely a single, self-driven, goal-oriented individual that lacks a certain sense of fear the rest of the world seems to run by. Although, I do still become fearful over minor things like squishing a bug on the sidewalk (I sometimes take extreme measures to avoid the conflict) and also I am fearful of awkward situations and can't deal with them well except to try and make light of them all the time. Plus my face still turns as red as apples when I feel embarrassed and shy and I'm self conscious about it. I'm a very spiritual person. One that needs a lot of alone time to recharge my soul through creative expression. I also seem to run on opposites with many things about myself. For example... I sometimes like to be the center of attention when other times I am the quiet observer in the corner. My mind is constantly churning with new waves of energy but my biggest downfall is I sometimes get caught on other peoples waves and lose track of my own. I become worried of how others see me and that I may be judged before I have a chance to speak. I love to laugh and make others laugh (it's life's best medicine). I often feel the need to repress my feelings as to not hurt others. I feel most alive when I'm doing physical activity and living with the spirit of adventurism. Hiking, biking, canoeing, swimming, traveling, photographing, climbing trees, walking through open fields... just being outside. I'm a natural born dreamer with a big imagination and still a big kid at heart. I've made the conscious decision that I will never fully grow UP but rather grow and add to the things I've loved my entire life. The only time I can ever be mean to someone is if they hurt someone I know, betray me, or purposely make me mad. My natural behavior is extremely compassionate. I care deeply for people in my life to an extent that they may never know. I set myself high goals to reach, even if I may never see the summit. I still prefer to wear boots over high heels. I think more logically than emotionally. I often feel super awkward when someone compliments me. I see myself as a shining star in the night sky (in the least conceided way possible) that can help others guide their way through life with hope and happiness. I feel like I was put on this earth to make changes even on the smallest levels and so my main motivation is to never give up on all of these ups and downs about me to help this world be just a little bit more of a better place.



So, I challenge anyone to try and undergo this conversation with yourself. Who are you? What are you? Think past your physical appearances and realize what you feel inside.